Wednesday, October 28, 2009
if you think ending ur life will end your pain.
u have just passed the pain to many who love u so much.



this time round..
can say it's a double hit..
everyone in the family is trying hard not to dig the past wound.
but somehow..
we did not fail to be reminded of the old pain..
and to juggle with the current one.

i strongly urge everyone to stay clear when ur heart seem lost.
like what heng always says..
"no problem in this world can't be solved.
even if it cannot be solve, then don't need to solve it then."

the feeling. is just. pain.


yuLingz wrote @ 12:58 AM
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009
i went to NIE 2nd interview today.
it's a art focussed interview, which i need to show them my port folio.
i went into this lady's office and she asked me to intro myself
while she looked at my printed stuff.
everything was cool, even tho i abit gan jiong spoke a abit of broken english.
but i think she understood. wahaha.
so she ended off with "so, see you in NIE next yr then!"



later in the day.
i couldn't decide what to eat for dinner. so i went to roam around.
went to a resturant was delighted they served tea with cookie!
they even served a basket of complimentary bread.
but that was the best part of the 4course meal.
sad.
soup was nah.
main course was pui.
dessert was huh.

eating alone sometimes feels...... that i can feel myself.
i can feel the seat.
look at every detail of the cutlery.
i can sip the tea slowly.
i see people pacing by.
how the waitress/waiter works.
look at the ppl dining.
think of things other than work.
think of what i wanna do.
think of what i wanna have.
think of tommorow
nothing. stone.


i do not always have the luxury to do that.
i only rmbr lunch time in sch are usually take aways, or gurping down within 15min.
when i eat with heng, i tend to put my attention on him, he does the same too.
not that i enjoy being alone. but it's like a breather.
to pause awhile and feel myself.





i feel weak.


yuLingz wrote @ 10:22 PM
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Monday, September 14, 2009
crazy yuling uses her water bottle and tap (scan) at the door of her classrm.

*di*

walking around big headed................................


^^^^
( - .- )


yuLingz wrote @ 1:58 PM
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Thursday, September 10, 2009
hello yuling.



typed and deleted. typed and deleted. typed and deleted.
this is the 4th time im starting my paragraph new.

there seems like a lot to say.
just that i don't know where to start.

or perhaps.
i just have to rearrange wat's in my head..




hold my hand and run with me..


yuLingz wrote @ 12:35 AM
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Monday, June 01, 2009
sat's performance was indeed. something very special for me..
not only the singing, in front of a crowd.
but the fact that my dearest audiences make me really special.

i personally felt really low confident abt myself.
but the support and the words i got, even from the start, till the end of the day..
they were all full of sincerity.

"ni ke yi de"
"jia you yuling!"
"all the best! good luck!"
"you need NEON BANNERS?"
"we noe u can do it!"
"dun gan chiong!"
"just go and be urself.."
"dun be sad! u did well!"
"it's really couragous of u!"
"dun be sad!"
"u sang well, dun give up!"
"it's ok! well done! and u got the most cheer!"
"you are good, dun need others to validate it.."
"to us u are e best le, the judges must be bribed of deaf"

and many many more..

my mummy called me at night ask me if i'm disappointed with the results.
even heng's widest grin. make me feel so.. touched that i have so many around me.



hahaha.. it's really a small event. but everyone turn up for me.
really very thankful.

it was really an opportunity to see friend whom i very long nv see..
the competition sort of turn out to be a gathering. hahaha.





:D
真心感谢大家..
I'm really nobody in front of the judges, but i feel special in front of all of u..


yuLingz wrote @ 12:47 AM
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Thursday, April 02, 2009
"What keeps so many people back is simply unwillingness to pay the price, to make the exertion, the effort to sacrifice their ease and comfort."


yuLingz wrote @ 9:06 AM
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Saturday, February 28, 2009
i receive a mailed letter tdy and it's from a dear freind.
the 7 pages letter is an encouragement letter.
to tell me wat im good at.

im really grateful. coz it made me realise. myelf.
thank you for reminding me. who i am.





..


i always love hand written letter from lala too.
from her words, i can feel wat she's telling me.
i guess nowadays, ppl seldom write. and i really appreciate friends who still does.
tho it's so old sch. but it really can touch my heart.
they nv fail to make my tear. tear of joy. gan dong-ed thick thick.


yuLingz wrote @ 1:38 AM
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